For the Child Who Cries

When we do wound care at the hospital, the doctor puts silver nitrate on the open wounds that are elevated. This chemically burns it down so it’s level with the rest of his skin. I try to imagine what it’s like to put a caustic chemical in an open wound with the intention of burning it down. I’ve never seen a human suffer as much as when they do this to Max. But there is nothing I can do to take it away.

I try to imagine what it was like for our Perfect Father to watch His Perfect Son suffer. I’ve been given a small glimpse into the view of a God who weeps. I’ve had a lot of time to think about suffering.

Thank you, Dad, for sending this message:

[To quote C.S. Lewis,] “The problem of reconciling human suffering with the existence of a God who loves, is only insoluble so long as we attach trivial meaning to the word ‘love.” Too often we confuse God’s love with human kindness. We want, in fact, not so much a Father in Heaven as a grandfather in heaven—a senile benevolence who, as they say, ‘liked to see young people enjoying themselves’ and whose plan for the universe was simply that it might be truly said at the end of the day, ‘a good time was had by all.’”

But that is not God’s plan for us. He wants us to become like Him. He wants us to experience the fullness of joy He enjoys—eternal joy, not merely temporary contentedness. And He loves us enough that He will do whatever it takes for us to reach that goal, including allowing us to experience things that are difficult and soul-stretching. And He does it not because He doesn’t love us, but precisely because He does.

But even when we have to learn things from our extremities in order to fulfill God’s plan for us, His love will be there to sustain us… especially when we need His love the most. …So let us not sell God’s love short by confusing it with mere human kindness. His love is much deeper than that. (Kevin J. Worthen, “It Was as If a Blanket of Love Was Flowing Over Me”, May 2, 2013, BYU Women’s Conference)

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  1. That quote is a great comfort to me right now, thank you for it. Heavenly Father is asking our family to stretch in a way we would not have chosen for ourselves, but I know the prompting received by the Holy Ghost really happened, and I am trying with my infantile faith to follow His counsel. I’m sorry you have to watch your baby suffer. I don’t know that pain, but we are praying for you and Max.

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